You're only given a little spark of madness. You mustn't lose it. Robin Williams

Location: Kentucky, United States

Wednesday, July 31, 2002

Can you say “Sleep deprivation”

All I can think about is how tired I am. I’ve only had fifteen hours of sleep since Sunday morning. The worst thing is this is about average for me during the week. While trying to stay awake at work I came across this.

Monday, July 29, 2002

Got to go to bed :( I have yet to figure out the clock on this site, but it is eleven p.m. here. I get up at 1:30 am for work. You do the math. I am an Echocardiographer/Respiratory Tech. who also does Cardiac Stress Testing, Holter Monitors, and Pulmonary Function testing. Except for the Stress testing I am the only person in our seventyfive bed hospital who does these exams. Makes for good job security but really lays on the pressure. Beverle is an R.N. who works 11-7, so to see her I sleep 3 or 4 hours a night, then 3 or 4 hours in the afternoon. Can you say "sleep deprivation"? Must try for sleep now, I'm back spacing more than I'm typing forward. Another Time

My name is Timmy. I’m forty-two years old, but I’m still a “Timmy”. My mother named me after the Timmy on the old black and white Lassie show. She said she wanted a little boy just like that one. When I was four my parents got a Collie puppy for me named, you guessed it, Lassie. My only memory of Lassie is stopping on the way into the house and trying to see how much of my foot I could get down Lassie’s throat. I wasn’t trying to be mean; it was just a matter of scientific curiosity.... My parents gave Lassie away shortly after that.

I failed in a lot of other ways to live up to my sitcom namesake. In my teens I fell in lust with a little girl from a very dysfunctional family. She taught me about Sex, Drugs, and Rock and Roll. I liked all three. Unfortunately I thought that meant we where made for each other. She was just too young and messed up to know any better. We got married, and after ten years together she left with the one of her boyfriends. It was a very ugly time.

Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had a very good life. It’s just that if I wasn’t so stupid half the time things would have been a lot better. You probably know how it goes. Most of us do.

Things changed, I met Beverle’ and she has enough goodness in her to make up for most of my self destructive behavior. But we’ll save that for another time.

Welcome to my Blog site! New site, new computer, and a brand new day. It's been a lot of trouble getting here. Server problems at home. We have not been able to even get on the web for over a week. We live in the middle of nowhere Ky, actually it's quite beautiful here but not very handy for geeks like me. Just typing what comes to mind right now. Just signing up with Blogger , not sure how it works. I'll think of something to say another time!!